Unpredictable

Maybe if i have my laptop now, I could have written many articles. Perhaps one article, a day. But here I am still wishing and hoping. I had better use this: confessing! It's something I will really love to have and I'm not going to quit confessing it! I know I will surely get it real soon!
Lately, I've been thinking about many things, you know; people and situations around me. I'm a very interesting person and I don't need to be told at all. I love life and I'm going to live it to the fullest God-willing. But to tell you truth if it must be told, I do find myself in a culdrum of having people showing me they really love me or to put it right, like having people being the same person I used to think they are. Not good people going bad folks, but my inability or my self-conscious denial that people will not always be the same. People change!

Can you imagine that I was almost in a fix at the law firm where i'm presently on intern over my mentor. How could she turn to be like this? I've questioned myself several times. Maybe she never liked me being here anyway and she refused to tell me this. Although everybody is busy here. Even, Yemisi and Barbara, two lovely people I've ever met in my life could sometimes be and it's hard to see their faces again. So also are others here.

One day, I shared my experience with them about my mentor. "hey!" they both chorused. "hope u are not thinking she's bad or mean anyway?" "people are busy here and u know u can always be the same person because people got so much on their mind so they never get bothered about you!" Yemisi said. What a great relief that was for me. At last, it is not what I thought it was.

Back at home which I shared with a friend of mine and his Auntie's family, he's getting too quiet for my liking these days. But I could have gone on worrying myself. Maybe it wasn't good I came in the first instance or I did something very wrong and he doesn't just want to tell me. But now, I know people are not like you and are in fact unpredictable. Just like French could likely change towards fashion or an artiste, I guess it's just a fad! And that doesn't mean people hate you or they won't have anything of you. NAH! It's never like that. It's just that people've got so much on their minds and they just want that solo time with themselves thinking about their lives and most times, nobody wants to be bothered at all!

Looking at it, I can also be a mule at times, and sometimes when I look at myself, I just thought maybe I'm stupid. I've heard friends complained about this and in fact lost some due to this just because I took the whole stuff too far. So look at it, you could also be in the same shoes. Think about those times you just want to be alone and nobody intruding into your serene ambience. In all, I guess people are just the same. They could be normal today, and before you say 'jack!' they've all gone over and you're just there wondering if you've done anything stupid or so.

I guess people are just unpredictable just as you and I are.